volition

There’s blood in my spit most days now. My nose feels like it’s crusted in cold, volcanic ash. Red. There’s been snow and rain, and flooded bathrooms at work, so dryness isn’t the cause.

Or it is. Sometimes I unintentionally dehydrate myself. If I drank more water, maybe my nose wouldn’t bleed every day.

While I’m washing dishes.

As I eat.

While I drum.

I have a brown glass growler that used to hold chai, but now always holds water. I should fill it up more often. Stop the bleeding.